New Town - Nothing New

Its amazing how moving to a new place makes others think that your life must be very new and exciting. When in reality its pretty much the same as before, just new scenery.

I'm sure a move to a big city (you know, like NYC or Chicago, etc.) would yield some new and exciting stories. But my recent moves from small northern town to slightly larger northern town haven't proved much differences. Obviously the people are different and there are different restaurants and bars. But the sad fact is, I'm the new kid here and don't have anyone to make crazy stories happen with. I mean, Paul is here, but our crazy stories aren't that different from the ones we made before.

I'm not upset by this fact. Just musing. I have found it interesting how difficult it is to make friends once out of school and out of your own circle. Because friends have friends that they introduce you to that you introduce to your own friends and so forth. but when you're the new kid you don't have that ingrained circle to start the ball rolling. And without school to force you into teams and relationships it becomes very hard to meet people. Or at least, that has been my experience.

I'll take the blame for not being as pro-active in this town as I have been in past moves. But I will also lay some blame on my job. I love it, but as the manager of a store I am the "top" of my store's food chain. My co-workers are also my employees which in my mind builds a wall between us that is very hard to scale and even harder to walk along without falling. There are many managers within the company that are on the same level as me, but the closest is 5o minutes away and in a different district. Its frustrating to have people you want to be friends with be so far away. Perhaps its a flaw in the company or just a flaw because we are so spread out up here. But none-the-less I think its something that makes the constant moves difficult. I love moving for my job, but I wish the social life didn't die with each move.

This sounds like a very depressed post, but in reality I think I'm just apathetic about the whole thing. And maybe thats the really problem. I just don't care. I would like to make friends, but in the last town I started to do that and then we moved. And the relationships weren't really strong enough yet to cause long lasting friendships. And Facebook can only do so much.

Lots of Love,
~*Ery*~