Bored

Is it wrong to sit at one's job and not do anything and get paid for it? I think it is. I mean I could be at home doing the same thing. Yet here I answer the phone every once and awhile, pick up stuff from the fax machine, deliver it and I get paid. I mean can you spell easy. But anyway.

Unfortunatly I have decided to talk to Josh. I say unfortunatly because its going to be a very awkward conversation. I have to be gentle and honest but I can't expose Jen for spilling the beans. And I want us to still be friends and stuff and go to the movies but I don't want to stay out talking until midnight because I'm too uncomfortable to say take me home. Its just such a tetchy subject. So I'm going to run through some thngs I could say.

Josh, I think we need to talk. I've been picking up some signals from you would like us...meaning you and I ... to be more than just friends. And I just want you to know that I don't feel the same way. I like hanging out as friends and stuff but sometimes I just feel uncomfortable because I feel as if there is this odd undercurrent of feelings just below the surface of our outings. And I'm sorry if this hurts you but I needed to get it off my chest.

Well that's not going to work...lets try this approach:

Josh, so my friend JT knows this guy who likes her and he doesn't think she knows, but she somehow found out and she doesn't feel the same way thus making it awkward for her when they hang out sometimes. What do you think, as a guy you would want her to do?

Then if he says: I'd want her to speak up and not feel awkward. Then I get to say:

So she should just tell him. What if he denys it or something? She just doesn't push the issue?

Or, if he says: He wouldn't want her to say anything and just keep it to herself. Then, I am angered, and I have to say:

Thank you for being objective. I will tell JT that. You are a good poll victim.

And in the end I guess I won't really tell him anything but at least I'll know how he feels.

~*ERY*~