Stuff that I Didn't Feel Right About Putting Under the Title "Love Affair w/Office Supplies"

My knee hurts! owowowow! I thinkI messed up my sciatic nerve again. Owowowow! I gotta stop being mean to myself. I think its from running and sleeping on the floor. Its probably messed my spinal alignment all up. Ah well I'll deal with it until it hurts to much.

I love fireworks! Yea for getting to see some downtown tommorow! I'm going with Jen and the guys and Sam and Meghan and their group. It should be fun. And maybe I'll call Jon up and ask him if he wants to go. But then again, I did the creepy thing and looked his number up in the phone book and that might reflect oddly on me. I mean, I would love to hang out with him and all, because we get along so great, but I'm worried about where my feelings are right now for him. I don't know that I like him, butI don't know that I don't. I mean if getting happy when his name is mentioned is a sign of infatuation, then yeah I guess I like him. But then again, if it just means that we have a good friendship starting then I guess I don't. The only way to find out is to call and invite him. But I feel so odd about that. Its really screwing with my head. Especially the fact athat Mrs. S. is so into it. I mean I don't know if I have true feelings or if its just: hmmm well maybe if she sees something then it must mean.... Whatever. Maybe I'll call him maybe I won't. I'll just have to see how my day goes.

I miss my best friends! I mess Jackie and Nancy. But I might get to see Jackie tommorrow at the fireworks which would mean some fun time. But it feels like I haven't seen Nancy in ages. She went up to her cottage and I don't know when she's coming back down.

But on the plus side I've made an online buddy! I think he's my twin. An so to answer his question...sort of: Ery is not my full name (can you imagine the schoolyard nicknames if it was?). But it is connected to my real name. I'm not gonna tell you anymore because thats just to much info going around. Oh, and I love sunsets too. I don't feel to much for a sunrise because they are just so slow. But a sunset is majestic and dramatic and powerful and I ablsolutely adore them. I like taking pictures of horisons on the water. THey just seem so peaceful to me, like nothing can interrupt that solitude.

Its amazing how much I love the water.

I think I know what i'm gonna be when I grow up. By the way when are you grown up? Is it at 18? 21? 30? When you finally have a caree and not a job? When you have a family? Anywho. I thinki'm gonna be an environmental scientist. Fun fun. I'm excited. I have to change my college courses though so I'm leaning towards ecology though and not so much nursing.

Oh and I believe that my outlook on life is better this week than it has been. I think its because I have finally embraced my natural afectation towards solitude. I enjoy doing things by myself and I had to accept it. And now that I have I feel happier. I feel less like I'm playing a part and more like I'm playing myself. No, I'm not a hermit, and yes I like being with other people a good amount of the time, but I also enjoy being alone and doing things like getting ice cream or riding around on my bike. Somehow, in the past few months I lost sight of that, which is sad because in a way I lost sight of myself. But now I've found it, so I can continue to grow with it. (Eeek, that was some major psychological babble-ish, its okay though)

~*Ery*~

P.S. This isn't the original blog but its pretty damn close with some changes and add-ons. Stupid Blogger...I wanna throw something at you, like a shoe.