Saturday, April 23, 2005
Shake-y
I'm so shake-y right now. The simplest explaination is that I got into two car accidents today. I'm fine but I don't know what happens next. I mean where do I go from here. I don't know if I trust myself to drive anymore...not that it mmatters because I don't have a car but that's not really the point is it? I think I might have whiplash. How will I get to school, more importantly how will I get home? I need a hug, a nice long one thta I can just fall into and not have anoher care in the world.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Okay so that wasn't it
In re-reading some of my former posts i found that I needed to update like crazy. So here goes.
I did "break-up" with Jeff but I think we are okay again. I mean at least we are talking and that makes it a good thing. Ummm. He is taking Meg to his prom s that is all fun and happy.
On the note of prom I am feeling so special and confused all at the same time. FIrstly I am going to three. Which is absolutly mind-boggling to me because I only expected to begoing to one, my own. So I'm going to ND's with Josh which is going to be a smidge awkward because I know he likes me but, he knows I don't like him so I guess thats cool. I'm also going to CC's with Ryan, two days after ND's (crazy partying occuring, I know). So that is a little weird because it came from nowhere. Well not completely from nowhere because Mrs. Jackie's-Mom and Jackie and Jay all spilled the beans. But despite Jay knowing more he wouldn't give out any details because he wasn't even supposed to say what he had. So I got to do the "I'm so suprised" act when Ryan called on Monday. So there is that. THen there is my prom. For which I have no date. I would like to take Jay but he is a topic unto himself so I will make a new paragraph.
Jay, this is ridiculous. I swear he is getting the better deal out of this friendship. I mean he's got three girls over here that are all a little bit in love with him. Yes all of us. That includes myself. Except in a weird way I know that if anything were to happen between us it would be odd and uncomfortable. So I don't want anything to happen, I more just like the time we spend together which I guess is a sign of a really good friendship. An amusing fact cosidering our pseudo-drunken revelry of Sunday night. Which s what Mrs. Jackie's-Mom said and that is why I'm not threatening. But the problem is Nancy may take Jay to prom and he knows that becase Jackie can't keep her mouth shut. So there is that.
THis will be continued later as my father is pushing the bed-time thing.
Alright, it's tommorrow now where was I? Oh right this messed up prom business. Well I've decided that I'm just going to ask Jay and let Nancy deal Because in some strange friendly way I have to look out for myself.
Speaking of looking out for myself I did a cruddy job of it right before winter break. I found that I nees to exercise some self control when I am in a "romantic" situation. nw that sounds really bad so let me explain. I went to a friend's party, it was basically just anexcuse for everyone to get trashed. I don't drink but I had been bored lately so I decide wat the heck might as well. So I went and all was well and good, I didn't drink, smoke, or in anyother way harm myslef, physically that is. For you see, as 'bedtime' came around well all started looking for a place to sleep. WIth two beds, two large armchairs, and plenty of floor the pickings were slim, considering the at least 15 of us that needed a resting place. So Jen, Jimmy, Romney, and myself all piled into one of the beds, in that order. Well to make this long story short I spent most of my night making out with Romney, I guy I had met for the second time that night. It wasn't emotionally hurtful until that morning. WHen I realize that even hough I hadn't realized it I had violated one of my own principles, know the person you are getting involved with well. So after raher relctantly exchanging numbers (I didn't want to seem like a sort of one-night-stand) I proceeded to go home and ignore all of his calls. Needless to say i is not a moment I was or am very proud of, but I feel that this is jus another way that I can let this all go; a healing process you could say.
Nother part of this healing process involved being honest with my best friends Nancy and Jackie. I told them the night before we went to CA. An absolutely amazing trip. We stayed in this swanky hotel that had concierges and everything. THey should make pocet sized concierges because they are jus so helpful! We went to Disneyland which was fun despite my curse of rain at a theme park. The food, no that is the wrong diction, our dining experiences were incredible. Seafood on Nancy's day, Indian onmine (a first for all of us), and a Bennihana's for Jackie's. Amazing! Let's see, I love the public bus system and I want to have one becausse its cool and a ton cheaper than gas ($3.00 to go anywhere all day). We discovered this on beach day. THe Californians thought were nuts but hey if its cold at home 60 degrees is great! THe las day we shopped, and by did we do awesome we were masters of wheelin' and dealin'. We ook the bus home when this nice giy old us that the bus would be faster than walking, even if we did have to wai for ten minutes. I like ariplanes, sorta. I mean they have this weird white noise thing going on and I hate landing but aside from that its a neat experience...although the food wasn't very good.
And for right now that seems to be all there is. I can't think of anything else to say plus I'm sleepy...I'm always the last one to get computer priveleges. :( So good night.
~*ERY*~
I did "break-up" with Jeff but I think we are okay again. I mean at least we are talking and that makes it a good thing. Ummm. He is taking Meg to his prom s that is all fun and happy.
On the note of prom I am feeling so special and confused all at the same time. FIrstly I am going to three. Which is absolutly mind-boggling to me because I only expected to begoing to one, my own. So I'm going to ND's with Josh which is going to be a smidge awkward because I know he likes me but, he knows I don't like him so I guess thats cool. I'm also going to CC's with Ryan, two days after ND's (crazy partying occuring, I know). So that is a little weird because it came from nowhere. Well not completely from nowhere because Mrs. Jackie's-Mom and Jackie and Jay all spilled the beans. But despite Jay knowing more he wouldn't give out any details because he wasn't even supposed to say what he had. So I got to do the "I'm so suprised" act when Ryan called on Monday. So there is that. THen there is my prom. For which I have no date. I would like to take Jay but he is a topic unto himself so I will make a new paragraph.
Jay, this is ridiculous. I swear he is getting the better deal out of this friendship. I mean he's got three girls over here that are all a little bit in love with him. Yes all of us. That includes myself. Except in a weird way I know that if anything were to happen between us it would be odd and uncomfortable. So I don't want anything to happen, I more just like the time we spend together which I guess is a sign of a really good friendship. An amusing fact cosidering our pseudo-drunken revelry of Sunday night. Which s what Mrs. Jackie's-Mom said and that is why I'm not threatening. But the problem is Nancy may take Jay to prom and he knows that becase Jackie can't keep her mouth shut. So there is that.
THis will be continued later as my father is pushing the bed-time thing.
Alright, it's tommorrow now where was I? Oh right this messed up prom business. Well I've decided that I'm just going to ask Jay and let Nancy deal Because in some strange friendly way I have to look out for myself.
Speaking of looking out for myself I did a cruddy job of it right before winter break. I found that I nees to exercise some self control when I am in a "romantic" situation. nw that sounds really bad so let me explain. I went to a friend's party, it was basically just anexcuse for everyone to get trashed. I don't drink but I had been bored lately so I decide wat the heck might as well. So I went and all was well and good, I didn't drink, smoke, or in anyother way harm myslef, physically that is. For you see, as 'bedtime' came around well all started looking for a place to sleep. WIth two beds, two large armchairs, and plenty of floor the pickings were slim, considering the at least 15 of us that needed a resting place. So Jen, Jimmy, Romney, and myself all piled into one of the beds, in that order. Well to make this long story short I spent most of my night making out with Romney, I guy I had met for the second time that night. It wasn't emotionally hurtful until that morning. WHen I realize that even hough I hadn't realized it I had violated one of my own principles, know the person you are getting involved with well. So after raher relctantly exchanging numbers (I didn't want to seem like a sort of one-night-stand) I proceeded to go home and ignore all of his calls. Needless to say i is not a moment I was or am very proud of, but I feel that this is jus another way that I can let this all go; a healing process you could say.
Nother part of this healing process involved being honest with my best friends Nancy and Jackie. I told them the night before we went to CA. An absolutely amazing trip. We stayed in this swanky hotel that had concierges and everything. THey should make pocet sized concierges because they are jus so helpful! We went to Disneyland which was fun despite my curse of rain at a theme park. The food, no that is the wrong diction, our dining experiences were incredible. Seafood on Nancy's day, Indian onmine (a first for all of us), and a Bennihana's for Jackie's. Amazing! Let's see, I love the public bus system and I want to have one becausse its cool and a ton cheaper than gas ($3.00 to go anywhere all day). We discovered this on beach day. THe Californians thought were nuts but hey if its cold at home 60 degrees is great! THe las day we shopped, and by did we do awesome we were masters of wheelin' and dealin'. We ook the bus home when this nice giy old us that the bus would be faster than walking, even if we did have to wai for ten minutes. I like ariplanes, sorta. I mean they have this weird white noise thing going on and I hate landing but aside from that its a neat experience...although the food wasn't very good.
And for right now that seems to be all there is. I can't think of anything else to say plus I'm sleepy...I'm always the last one to get computer priveleges. :( So good night.
~*ERY*~
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Beautiul girl
I am beautiful and girly and loved. I should feel this way and it is not bragging. Its good self-isesteem. You are beautiful and lovedand special too. And tha is all there s
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