Dirty Dancing

Mmmm. I love that movie. Its so good! It actually just made me realize something too. Dirty Dancing is the reason tha tI associate dancing with a loving sexual thing. Oooo that scene where Patrick Swayze (be still my heart) and Jennifer Grey are dancing and as they dance they slowly strip each other and have sex for the first time, just touches the romantic in me. I want that...I have that. Paul loves to dance with me...and strip me...but that's a different topic. It was just an interesting realization.

I miss Paul. I didn't get to see him this weekend and its hard. He's having a hard time at school and doesn't know if he even wants to be an engineer anymore. He's feeling so much pressure from his classes and all he's done fro the past three years is take classes for this and now he's not sure. I want so much to support him, but in some back protion of my mind I think he's just scared. He's never been able to pinpoint exactly what he'd like to do and I think its just getting to him. That and his classes are tougher. I don't know its complicated I guess. SOmething he's just going to have to figure out. I told him that I'll stand by him in whatever he does, but I'm not sure how far that even goes with him. He's always so worried that I'm going to leave him, I don't know why. If i ever have fun when he's not here he gets worried that I'm going to find someone new while I'm out. It's frustrating because I don't know what he wants me to do. Imena I want to go out an have fun and he says he wants me to too, but then whenever I tell him about my evening he gets upset. I want to share with him but for somereason he gets tetchy about it. Grrr. I love him anyway, I just don't know what to do.

That's it really, I don't much feel like putting things down in words right now, I'm feeling rather blase right now.

~*Ery*~

"He's Jewish"

Leah just said that. I thought it was funny. Leah lives across the hall from me and is quite fun. She's playing Oregon Trail online. She's cool. Erin my suitemate is here too. Good fun all around. I'm going to bed soon. Just got on here to check something and now I have to hear something about the plural of box. Hmmm.

Oh! Paul and I just had our one year anniversary!! It was a great year. I love him so much. Yeah so there. Name face going on all over the place. Happy happy joy joy. :) :)

~*Ery*~