Looking back

I realized in reading some former posts that I mentioned "putting the moves on" Jeff. Well I figured a follow up was neded for clarities sake.
I did put the moves on him, ie I held his hand at the movies. We progressed from there, going ou the next weekend...wherein I received my first kiss (and my second for that matter). I like kissing its fun. Anyway, after that date I did some soul searching and found that it just wasn't going o work out between us. SO on Dec. 23 (yeah 2 days beore Christmas) I called him and told him... He was so sad sounding it almost broke my heart. But now we are at that awkward place and he will barely speak to me...not out of anger I don't think but out of selfpreservation. Because, if I face it, I am a natural flirt...when I'm not trying to flirt, when I'm trying I sound like a blathering idiot but yeah. That's how taht worked ou/didn't however one chooses to look at it.

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Doodling

I love to doodle! I have doodled all ove most of my school notebooks and I am starting to do it at work. I feel so artsy! Anywho. My last post captures nothing of how I was feeling but whatever, close enough...ecstatic is the closest I an come to describing me that weekend. My unle is getting arried this weekend!! Weee PARTY!! Although I'm happy for the whole marriage thing to because that is just positivly marvelous in itself. I had seafood at work today yum...Jackie and Nancy and I are lima beans (but not really). Hip hip hooray for teaching your best friend how to walk in stilettos...believe my you haven't lived...Work, was, well, work. I feel rather icky, cold season and all. Oh well bedy-by time now. Nightynight!

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I'm Bubble-y!

What a great day/weekend! They have kinda run together so I am just happy about them both.
Rainbow was amazing!!! To see 2,000 Catholic teens openly expresssing their faith is one of the most beutiful things I think I will witness. And to be a part of it at the same time is just absolutly incredible. I can't express how much it meant to me.
I am bubble-y at work. And I showed dignitude to someone.

Ho Hum

Went to the Auto Show today, that was fun. Nancy and I looked so crazy awesome in or coordinating outfits...thats right, Nancy andicoordinated outfits. We both wore skirts, above the knee woowoo, and pink shirts with white tube socks and sneakers. It was awesome! What was more amazing was when Jay noticed and questioned our "sameness" (def. not a word but yeah I make things up).
On the note of words Nancy and I found tha a dictionary can bevery aenjoyable...Thanks Mrs. Wi___rt. And do you know the difference between a thingamajig and a doohickey? Well I do and so does NAncy so there. We also discovered the meaning of the word welter...If I remember corectly its someone who rolls around in the mud...heehee doesn't that sound fun!? I would love to roll in the mud and not have to worry about what I looked like after 'cause its the most fu when you ahve complete abandonment.
I cried today. I cried because I couldn't pay my speeding ticket in cash and had to go to 7-11 to get a money order... I cried over that! Which made the mascera I almost never wear run, so I looked like a weirdo at 7-11. not my best moment. I was also a bit sad because I found this picture of Matt today. And I have to finally admit o myself tat I still have feelings for him. I saw the picture and I just wanted to hug him and smell him (best smelling guy I have ever met) and just be near to him...It made being alone kida hard, but I got over it.

"You're so skinny; I bet you look funny in a bathing suit!" ~~Cyndi (at random, I swear that is exactly what she said and it was out of nowhere!)

"I'm Switzerland.">Andrea, meanwhile I go into spasms because I say that all the time.

O Happy Day

The light that shineth down from heaven smiled on me today! I skipped and frolicked and forgot that the world watches and judges harshly. I forgot that it was cold out, in fact I glorified in the fact. I felt at home...at peace with myself for the moment. Everything melted away (an odd phrasing since it was snowing) and slid into place. THe pieces fit. I was happy. Grades held no power over me and for once college wasn't looming over my shoulder reminding me that this time is brief. I was there n the moment I smelled the roses and they were lovely.
The snow, as I have mentioned contains such a healing quality for me. I feel safe and protected despite its freezing powers. It is my natural habitat and I feel happy to be able to fiinally accept that as my own.

Hmm...musings

Well, as with so many other thngs in my life my confusion is centered around the opposite sex. Confused because I can' seem to get over Matt. I know in my head that he has nothing to offer me and that he really is just a selfish guy who only thinks about himself and what he needs (if you read this all really fast with no pauses for air that is how it was supposed to sound) and I know that his and my paths don't match but I'm stuck damnit and I can't do anything about it! Its silly really that I should even be stressing or analyzing this but hey thats why I'm blogging the whole thing. And I am soooo sick and tired of breaking things off at the "seeing each other" phase that it is not even funny. But anyway, some other more happy thoughts.

Today was...good... I guess. I'll be having Drama Class with Lauren which excites me to no end!!! And I went to a buffet today and I way overate but it was okay because with finals and all I got to go home and sleep which was marvelous to the -enth degree. And then at work JT and I "exchanged info". Woohoo!

"I will now make the first incision...crap...now I have two first incisions!"~~on the wonders of knowing your waitressing lines in order.

Oh yeah there is a ghost at The Boy. I have decided that we are going to have a seance around the gas stoves to talk to it and find out why it is haunting me at work.